Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Ultimately I still have to come back here .
I thought I would be able to abandon this place completely .
But I have no where to go .
It feel like someone is constantly squeezing my heart .
Why ?
Why can't I just let you go ..
I've never gave up in the first place ..
Why am I always a loser in relationship ..
I felt so hurt when i know you fell for another guy .
I felt worse .. when you turn cold to me .
The additional image of you kissing another guy .. is ripping me off .
Its a long torturous squeeze .
I feel nauseuous .
I'm dying .
To love is to let go .
I can't let go .
Is that not love ?
I just want to hold your hands ,
random kisses ,
warm hugs,
and brings you to the foreground .
Grudges are made to last .
But they are not of permanence .
Love neutralizes .
I only wants to protect you from all ,
To shield you from the crowd ,
To embrace you with all I have .
I want to bring you to nice places .
Just you and me .
I want to just dote on you .
Getting small things that you like .
Doing little stuff that makes you happy .
I am not a great lover .
I have learnt alot .
I have learnt through the hardest way .
So hard .. That I'm going down .
I just want to give you happiness .
I have learnt to be selfish ..
Let me be selfish and be the only one to give you happiness .
Humans are artificial .
But I am not .
I swear .
Maybe I am inhuman ?
I need to shout .. to suffocating .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I am feeling so terrible .
Am I a loser who comes blogging to pour out his woes ?
Yes I am .
There are so much that I want to share with you .
A chance is all I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed .
Give me a chance to make you the happiest girl ever .Labels: chance, heartbroken, jasper, juan, loser
#-missing you.
11:30 AM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Found myself a full time housewife. =)
I'll promise to write a longer post next time.
Take care guys.
#-missing you.
6:23 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Recruit Jasper from Taurus Company Platoon4 Section 2 Reporting.
Damn cool~!
Get to know lots of new friends.
Everday exercise until shag.
Sing song until voice broke.
But still fun!
Although theres fun, laughter and joy.
But something seems amiss..
On my 1st bookout,
Juan came to fetch me.
Its the 1st time a girl came to fetch me. (For whatever reasons)
It feels. . .
During the weekend, it feels good to have a servant serving you by your side.
What more can one ask for in life?
My book in timing is 2025.
But I'm off to beach road to get my stuff first.
See ya guys next weekend.. hopefully!
Till then.. take care ya.
#-missing you.
12:54 PM
Friday, July 07, 2006
Hi guys!
Me going chalet le~
Finally its my turn to create my own army life story!!
Sooo excited!
Will anyone miss me??? =D
I'm done with my preparations for 14 days camp.
Take care guys till then.
P.S: I am mostly likely be in tekong when you read this. If my servant is lack of sunshine. DO THIS ONLY IF YOU ARE SERIOUSLY LACKING OF SUNSHINE: Go to your handphone stored messages folder AND photo folder. New undiscovered little surprises might brighten up your day alittle. ^.^
#-missing you.
12:34 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
Where shall I begin with?
Its been busy these days.
Working, eating, playing.
Terrible feeling begins to fade away.
People come and go.
And she's a passerby in my life.
Everyone have the freedom to love.
No one is able to snatch this freedom away from anyone. (Right?)
Ok ok.
I shall stop blogging such -ve post.
Someone once told me I should blog more +ve post.
After all, blogging ain't meant for keeping bad memories only.
Argh..
I seriously do not know how to continue blogging.
Its because theres practically too much to blog on.
Where to begin, where to emphasize, where to stop.
Might be because of my sleepiness thats affecting my thoughts.
From here on, I'm gona write whatever appear in my mind.
There's something my grandma said.
And I feel good about it.
"I like to be taken care of by you only."
It feels good when someone trust you and depend on you.
Probably because I'm elder son.
I enjoy taking care of others.
Or maybe this is my nature?
I really hope I can ever repay all the great things she has done for me.
But there are still years to come before I can get my degree.
I really pray hard.
I want her to witness my achievement.
I want to do her proud.
God bless this day to come.
There's another person who recently seriously enter my life.
Juan the servant. ^.^
Servant for 1 week just because her palm size is smaller than mine by a cm?
Dont wana comment on her too much because she gona read my blog.
Sunshine is essential for plants. ^.-
Plants need sunshine to bloom. -> Quote from Plant
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#-missing you.
12:44 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006
Plants need sun to grow.
Sun need plants to shine on.
Therefore,
Sunshine exist?
#-missing you.
2:24 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
AAARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!
Think i must go library tonight.
To find any book related to..
"Forget someone"
"Think of you not"
"Do not think of her"
"She's not yours anymore"
"Stop being stupid"
"101 ways to stop thinking of loved ones"
"Dummy guides to become dummy without love"
ARrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going down to cmpb for taking photo to be used in NS IC.
And i've just sprayed my hair BLACK!
I'm basically looking like a nerd now.
Because of the dumb spray, I can't adjust my hair.
It just looks flat like my grandpa's hairstyle. >.<
Haiz..
So near yet so far.
I see her block,
see her msn,
see her number.
But I just can't do anything!!!
Helpless like a 1 mth baby. =(
I'm taking cab to CMPB now.
Cya.
#-missing you.
1:51 PM
Gotta whine here again.
Sorr kevin(Spac2go), for having to see me whining again.
Packed myself with lots of things today.
Today went photography shooting at shenton way.
And my teacher ask me get a female model.
Actually i wanted to get P but not free.
So went to find A instead.
Being a female model is great.
More pay than male model.
Sorr Ming.
My teacher style is ladies get higher pay >.<
Today went to catch a movie at The Cathay with P.
Its like suddenly alot memories squeezed into my brain.
Almost died from brain toxication. -.-*
2 sad person go out together.
Sad Sad = Happy?
Mathematics is - - = + correct?
Shag.
Memories are killing me.
Me go slp le.
My dad just told me that i've gotta wake up at 6.45am to bring my sis to sch.
3 hours of slp. =(
Nights.
#-missing you.
2:38 AM